The Deciding Moment

Where are you if I need you most right now?
My strength, my courage, and hence, my safety…
It is the deciding moment for me
And what ensues it - the future to come.

It’s a constant battle of heart and mind
In hopes that, someday, I will surely find
The reason to live out my life today;
In hopes that there’s something, I hope, I pray.

Crippled by constant fear, what is my might?
What tool, what power can I use to fight
This haunting feeling that dwells inside me?
What painful journey do I have to take?